These days I have a cast on my left arm and typing is difficult. So, I’m reaching way back to a Journal entry written almost fourteen years ago, but still true today. I think many people get songs “stuck inside their head,” but they probably never think of this reason:
(02-17-01)(I was composing the words for songs to include in my script, The Candlewick Question and went to rent some videos in the hopes that they would “set my earwig” to singing.)
Let me mention the “earwigs.” There was a column in the paper describing them. How, when the person hears a jingle, or catchy song, they couldn’t stop singing it for hours. That something independent, that they named the earwig, would keep on singing the song to their brain. I’m well familiar with these entities inside, and they are Whoever, or Whatever talk to me on this opened listening channel. They cannot be dismissed so easily as thinking of them as little tape-recorder-singing bugs. But to someone not attuned to Their Presence, this may be the only effect that They can have. The person ignores Them, but sings along with the reflected song. That person would never think of having a conversation with “their earwig,” but that so-called Earwig is God, trying to talk to them. It means that the person’s shield is thin, and that they can hear His Voice, but that they don’t listen.
You notice that I have pluralized it, and call “Them” earwigs. That’s because I have been talking to mine for so long that the range has expanded, as it will, if you do! You see, the One assigned to earth as God (The Creator of the Earth) is certainly not alone out there. There are many interested in communicating, once an open channel has been found. My Work, over the past six years, was conducted over this opened hearing channel. Now, it’s mostly dealing with The Holy Spirit and The Great Creative Force, and we have finished The Assignment and are in a very casual and easy-going mode now. They sing to me a lot, usually all night.
Last night was particularly full of song, a sort of humming, or droning, in my ear. It’s often just a way of staying connected and doesn’t denote anything of profound importance. Sometimes, it has to do with another person’s emotional reaction to me, or if they are reading the scripts, or my letter to the editor, for instance, They tune in on that and report what’s going on. If it is significant, They become very loud in Their sing-song.
I hear Them now as a high-pitched tone in my ears. The right ear, in particular. Now that I am mentioning it, the sound has diminished, as if He is now listening to what I’m saying, or thinking, or writing, instead of letting Himself go on and on. You see, I have to stop what I am doing and turn my consciousness towards that sound, in order to hear words form. Just as you must “listen” to anyone or anything to bring it from background noise into shape as words. In this case, the Inner Earwig sound vibrates along in a fairly fast pattern, until I turn my mind towards it and focus, Innerly, upon it. Then, it will slow into understandable words.
Before I learned to do this, the Sound would come and go, and would sometimes seem to externalize. I often tell of the years in which I thought that a ceiling light fixture was defective and I would wonder why so many lights, in so many buildings, had that strange, distinctive, high-pitched hum. For years, I never focused on it, but heard it everywhere. It was so high and fast because It was frustrated and aggravated that I wouldn’t focus to listen. Once in awhile, now, They get that way if there is something exciting going on and, when I listen, I first hear a conscious slowing down of the sound vibration in order to form understandable words.
Other times, like just this second, I feel a sudden and sharp pain in my eardrum. They are telling me now, that it’s a way to get my attention, to notify me that They have something to say. At this moment, it’s simply to remind me to include mention of the ear pain signal. At other times, I will experience a “poof” in one or both ears, like an internal change of air pressure. That indicates a spontaneous, surprise, emotional reaction to whatever I might have thought of, at just that moment. They know my moment to moment thought, as They are listening in at all times. Usually, it’s no surprise to Them, but if I should think of something like: “Last year, at this time, I was….” or if I should make some kind of mental connection, I might surprise Them, and I feel Their reaction as a “Poof” in my eardrum. Sometimes, it doesn’t feel to me, as if my thought was profound enough to warrant that, but it’s just whatever thought that was inspired within Them. I’ve also mentioned before, the many and frequent touches that I receive. Tiny pains that come and go. My right knee gets a lot, for some reason. Anyway……my Life With The Earwigs!